This won't matter to most of you, so just ignore it and know that I don't take too kindly to anyone stepping on the toes of anyone I care about. Just...don't do it, k?
Evie,
I’m going to be a good person to Jessica, and not say to her that I told her so, but to you? Well, I really don’t care what I say. Honestly, I’m only now disappointed that I won’t get to meet you in person, because I truly hoped to, so that when you annoyed me face to face, I could lay into you - face to face.
Sadly, I tried to advise Jessica not to allow you to come out there and I gave her all of the reasons why she should not, and you have proved me right (which is a thing I adore, you know) in more ways than I might have hoped -- if not for the fact that it’s someone I care deeply for that you have screwed over with your childish and pathetic whims.
Ever since the moment that I first “met” you, I have had you pegged as an extremely immature and ambitionless child, and you are those things and worse.
You were given such a great opportunity in being allowed to go out to California, which you obviously chose because it was Aubrey’s home state. I guess you thought that you would see her when she came home for breaks from school? Interesting how that didn’t happen, hmm? I wonder why that is. Oh, sure, sure, I am positive that there were excuses given, and you obviously had no means whatsoever of getting down there because you have no job, no money, no gumption, and no true desire to work at anything.
But what happened to Aubrey, I wonder? Surely she could have come to visit with you. Even if it was just for a weekend, or a day, it would have been better than nothing, right? How can a person who loves another person so much not just do whatever it takes to get to their love, when they are only a 45 minute flight away? I just cannot fathom not doing so. Jessica and I have spent massive amounts of money going to see one another, and we aren’t even “in love” and certainly aren’t engaged. Oh, but wait, you’re not engaged anymore, are you?
I find that Christmas break situation all very strange, and I can assure you that I am not the only one. And I will tell you something else : If you aren’t both willing to make such things happen now, things will just fizzle all the faster. I’m an adult; I know these things. I know it may be hard for a child to understand, but take it from an adult - It’s weird what didn’t happen over Christmas break.
But, what an opportunity you were given! You got to fly out to California and all Jessica expected of you was that you clean up after yourself (didn’t happen) and you stayed with her son at night and got him to school in the mornings (mostly happened). Would most people have been satisfied to do just those things and not contribute at all to the rest of the household, and also not try to further themselves and their “dreams” in any way? Unlikely.
What you should have done was get a job. You had all of the time that Jessica was home and awake, until the time she had to go back to work in the evenings to get a job, but did you? No. You also had all of that time to go and find a theatre company so you could work on your “acting” and your “singing”, but did you do that? No. You did none of those things, even though you should have been feeling horribly guilty for taking such advantage of Jessica, awfully pathetic and useless that you were doing absolutely nothing to further yourself in any way, or to build a life that you could call one of an adult, or that would allow yourself and your girlfriend to be together and functioning and happy.
And so, how in the world do you expect anyone to believe that if you take your lazy, ambitionless self out to NYC - the hardest city in the world - that you are going to actually do any of the things you keep talking about doing/wanting to do?
You won’t. You’re going to fail out there too, and not just because NYC will drag you around and pick you up and chew you to bits and pieces and spit you out, but because you are useless, pathetic, lazy, unattractive and utterly without talent. Yup. That’s what I said. You want someone to be honest with you? Well there you go. You’re not attractive enough for anyone to give you an acting job. And you don’t sing well enough - even for all of your wasted lessons - for anyone to give you a singing job. People only gush over your singing because you force it upon them and, really, what are they supposed to say? They are your friends. I am not.
The saddest thing in all of this though, is that I think Aubrey is just afraid to let you go, because she’s afraid that you’ll kill yourself. How does that make you feel? That you’ve got a girlfriend who probably doesn’t want to be with you anymore and yet can’t leave? Wow. That must feel awful. To not be loved, but to be kept hanging around because she would feel too guilty in letting you go must really make you feel like shit. I suppose you think that if you go out there, she will have to keep you because you will cling and hang off of her and just make a complete fool of herself and you and she will give in. I feel awfully badly for her.
Aubrey sounds like a smart girl, with a good head on her shoulders. She sounds ambitious, and she should really be allowed to be free and live the “college life” as it’s meant to be lived…not with a sniveling twit clinging to the belt loops of her jeans. Sad, sad days ahead for Aubrey.
Maybe it’s what she thinks she wants now, but she’ll soon get bored and annoyed with your mooching, because all you’ll be able to do in NYC is work food service, and you’ll never be able to afford your own place. Good luck to your “friends” (read : people who also won’t leave you because they are worried you’ll end yourself) when you’re staying with them - making messes and not cleaning them and spending all of your time pretending you’re people who don’t exist.
I wouldn’t even care about how pathetic you are if you weren’t leaving Jessica in such a bind…but you are…and for what? To just ruin Aubrey’s life, and everyone else's close to her…How long will it be, I wonder, before you’re crying and whining out there because you made another mistake? I give you a few months, if that.
Troubles between two people don’t stem from separation. Being apart is supposed to make one more fond of the other when they come back together, but I suppose that if one of the people doesn’t want to make the effort to “come back together”, the other person is left trying frantically to find a way to not be left behind, which is what you will be when Aubrey finds success.
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Well, Evie, wish Aubrey well for me. I wish I knew her, so I could have advised her to get rid of you as soon as you started being pathetically clingy. The poor girl needs to live her own life and not have to worry over excess baggage. Have fun in NYC while people still believe that you’re going to try. And have fun moving back in with your parents when you fail at life again.
Ciao. 
